Thursday, January 27, 2011

Show us your Life

Today is Show us your life on Kelly's Blog. I never participate, but this weeks topic hits home. This week is all about adoption, a topic I LOVE.  As many of you know, my husband and I have been trying to conceive for 10 years now.  The beginning of 2010 we had a calling to persue fostering and adoption through our state.  We started our paper work in May of 2010 and we are in the final steps to complete the process to have our house open. 

This road is hard.  It's sad.  But it's OUR road.  I have longed for children and just knew that I was meant to be a mom, but when God had different plans, I have had to trust him and give my plans over to him.  I have learned to let go, let him lead me, crave his plans for my life. It has not been easy, and yes I have resisted several times, but I try.  There are days that my heart hurts so bad! There are days that I can not breath from the pain! There are days that I feel so alone, that no one could ever fell this pain! You know what.....HE KNOWS MY PAIN!!!! I have found peace in that fact whenever I have that deep down, heart hurting pain.  He loves me and he has HUGE plans for my life.  I don't know how my story plays out, but I know that there will be kids involved!!!

So this is my story, it's incomplete I know, but it's a work in progress!  I may not have the adoption story yet, but I will someday! Till then, I will praise the Lord, Love my God, and give HIM all the glory!  I pray that none of my friends and family ever go through this or know this pain! I pray for the women in this world that have to walk this road!  Above all, I give THANKS to my Lord for my journey.


Oh, and I have to say that this little guy ROCKS!!! This is my nephew. He was adopted from Ethiopia! Just thought I would give a shout out to this guys on this special SUYL!! Love you buddy!

2 comments:

mel @ the larson lingo said...

Visiting from Kelly's Korner. Thank you for sharing your story and for your courage to share! I pray that God blesses you with a child....SOON!
"May God give you the desires of your heart & let all your plans succeed" Psalm 20:4

Anonymous said...

Julie,
You are going to be a fantastic mom. Hang in there. God isn't finished with you yet. Faith, Hope, Determination, Expectations equal Answered Prayers. Don't give up. Renew your Strength in the Lord.
Love you, Mom